yoyo aren't i early lalala haha doin proj last one le woohooo yippee can go chiong exam le lalalala haha erm yup feeling much better 看开了很多 想跟你说 你没那个必要躲我 我来就好 不是你的错 一切都是我的错 所以后果我自己一个人承担 你不必负责任 我想和你说对不起 害了你 我们依然是朋友 可是需要时间 我才能向以前一样面对你 坦然得面对你 我知道你不好受 你不希望我那么做 可是我没法子了 唯一方法 我们总有一天 会像以往一样那么要好的=] 看得出你想要帮我 所以给了我那些眼神 不过只会让我更难过 因为它把我推进深渊 我是否看到了冰冷的世界 看到了雪 看到了灰色天空 再见了 惠*~
8:54 AM, love is floating in the air
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
jux ended tutorial
haha
at library
llala
nw at clubhse
sian tired
emotionally
physically
decided to pick my self up
no matter wat
u
no matter whr u r
no matter will u knw
i wont be bothered by ur presence anymore
i onli knw
ur 冷酷无情的眼神
把我推入深渊
11:52 AM, love is floating in the air
Monday, July 28, 2008
hihi nw nw i m at kap nw haha hehe erm wit two of my frens haha don tel u who are they lala if u see us too bad =PPP bleh
haha lalalal =PP emoing stil ytd slept early but feel like nvr sleep at all haix all ur fault anw i knw u wont read this so nvm loh oo pls let me beg u jux go away fro me leave me alone i dun wan to be related to u anymore no matter wat i tink i cant or we cant go bck to as wat we used to cannt go bk to e past can no longer face u calmly
=[[ sorry da jia dui bu qi don ask me anything abt it erm wanna thnaks my frenzies i knw ur r worried don waste tym over me le go on ok =] bb
11:23 AM, love is floating in the air
Sunday, July 27, 2008
对不起
王子邱胜翊
加油！~~~
2:51 PM, love is floating in the air
hihi at lib nw wanted to do hw ltr on hehehe haha sian a boring sitting on floor doin work nw lala watchin my darling wangzi =]]
ytd went scc ate wit them wat a rare sight wen i marnd sorry i left early ytd cs emoing sorry sorry =]
决定放弃 我们的定义 是必须还是代替 已没有意义 因为我决定放弃
封印 西元2008年7月27日 不会再打开 心死了 再见 不应该是不见
1:53 PM, love is floating in the air
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Blog link: http://www.huihui21cool.blogspot.com I . I will analyse the following through her blog: ü Self concept ü Self esteem ü Social self Firstly, self concept is the collection of knowledge of him/herself, which is basically how you see yourself as. By asking yourself a simple question ‘who am I’ and you can find out how much do you understand yourself, be it in the aspect of personality, physical appearance, values, personal believes, natural talent and abilities. Self concept can be dependent by several factors: 1) Self schemas 2) Culture 3) Self knowledge Schemas are mental forms that organize our knowledge about the social world around themes or subjects and that influence the information people notice, think about, and remember. Hence, self schemas are basically categorizing a person’s own personalities, qualities and strengths, weaknesses and then the person defines what type of person he wants to be. From her ‘profile’ list, she mentioned that she likes to ‘emo for a small issue’ which is what she find her personality to be, which is to fret over small matters. This can be confirm by several posts e.g. 13th July, 16th July 2008 , 19th July 2008 and 21st July 2008. She repeatedly mentioned that she is ‘emo’ (emotional). This may perhaps be partly contributed by self-fulfilling prophecy where she assume herself as an emotional person and thus, in all these posts, she kept emphasizing that she is going through the emotional period again. For cultural differences in definition of self, people from Asian and non-western countries will most probably have an interdependent view of him/herself. This is where people define themselves primarily in terms of their relationships with other people and they recognize that one’s behavior is often determined by the thoughts, feelings and actions of others. From Hui Hui’s blog, I can infer that she is always being bullied by others as she defined some of her hates as ‘people who think that cheating her is fun’, ‘ being hurt’ and also ‘being treated like an idiot’. This fulfills the definition of interdependent view of herself as she her thoughts of self-protection are based on other people who may previously bully her or hurt her emotionally in one way or another. Through Hui Hui’s blog, I can feel that she is very certain about what she likes for instance, her idols, singing which are her hobbies and also physical products such as strawberries and pink dolphin. She designed her blog in the way that she posted a lot of her idol’s pictures, youtube videos and even songs. From her post on 15th July 2008, after her friends repeatedly asking her why she kept on chasing idol which is being impractical, it serves as an introspection. Now, she is fully aware that chasing idols is being impractical and become more self conscious about her actions. However, she feels that chasing idols is an intrinsic motivation as she treats this as a support in her life that keeps her happy. Next, I shall use the social comparison theory. As I had mentioned above that she feels that she is always bullied by others, she may feel inferior when she compare herself to other people. This can be further seen on the 16th July 2008 entry. “maybe it is because I am too useless to be independent, I am just so useless. Don’t you think so, bloggy (the name she gives to her blog), I am always pouring my sorrows on you. I have never think how sorry you will feel =[[[[[[There are too many things in this world that i am afraid to face it. Maybe I am just too gutless, too timid. Or maybe I should just go out and knock myself in this world. Even I will end up to be wounded, it doesn’t matter. Keep going on, Hui Hui! I think that everything is unfair in this world. Maybe that’s why some people’s lives are always peaceful and straight, while some are so risky and disordered. Maybe i should learn to venture on my own, not just hiding in a corner and cry like a weakling. I am not weak. I shouldn’t be so vulnerable anymore. So to all my friends, remind me not to be weak. I am SUPPOSED TO BE MAN AND STRONG AND INDEPENDENT. I HAVE TO BE WHAT I HAVE TO BE. I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO CRY OR SOB, NOT TO HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES. Most probably over all these years, my tears had already been accumulated, and they are now rushing out themselves. Since young, i never like to cry in front of others and I think I shouldn’t be crying infront of others also. I am strong and so that people can depend on me. I am a cheerful person.” – translated from huihui21cool.blogspot.com She feels that her life is not as good as others. She do not wish be inferior in other people’s eyes but she personally feels that she is uncomparable to the others. “I think that everything is unfair in this world. Maybe that’s why some people’s lives are always peaceful and straight, while some are so risky and disordered.” This is an example of upward social comparision whereby she compares her life with other person who lead a more ‘peaceful’ life. This had caused her to be more motivated and strive towards her own better life, to be independent and strong. Next, I will like to talk about her self-esteem. Self esteem is our overall self-evaluation or sense of self worth. From her high aim of GPA 4.0 (from her wish list) , I feel that she has high self-esteem in terms of her academic as she can confidently post on a public blog and say that she wants to achieve a high gpa of 4.0. However, from her post on 16th July 1008 entry (translated above), I can see that she feel very useless and hence, she do not have very high self-esteem. In general, I feel that most of the time, she is very positive about her life, as she will share about her friends, and her enjoyable experiences in school, in CCA etc. However, in her inner heart, she yearns for someone that can understand her and someone she can depend on. From her way that she likes her idols, I feel that she is pinning hope on these idols as an ‘emotional support’.
haha above i blog for tan si ting de haha she sae mux put so i put loh actually i quite agreeed lah haha to how much extent don tel u hahaah lalala erm but quite true but stil i love my wangzi ( 邱胜翊） haha bb
6:01 PM, love is floating in the air
Friday, July 25, 2008
yoyo y i so eary cs come sch do AAA hahaha lalala nw bloggin ltr go do hw liao lala erm erm dunno how to do sian diao ytd watch perfect cut agn so nice sad tonight is finale =[[[
btw e cinderella story came to a happy ending like all fairy tale will do xiaoli and sky ended up tgt though in e beginning sky is very hurt by wat xiaoli sae that sky is givin her too much pressure every1 can feel xiaoli stil cares abt skty jux she dun wan sky to be hurt or be mocked so touched lol erm in e end cs sky wanted to eat alot and gt into hospital they two finally gt tgt
nw left kelly and alex they would have been tgt 9 yrs ago if they din rmb the wrong place whr they really first met they would b tgt le haix sadd one again
8:54 AM, love is floating in the air
Thursday, July 24, 2008
one of the lines inside 一切完美 从前有一个很胖的灰姑娘 她一直很想自己可以像灰姑娘遇到她的白马王子 可以有她的玻璃鞋 她一直等待 终于让她等到了她生命里的白马王子 白马王子也像她所期望的 给了她美丽的玻璃鞋 她也很开心 想穿上那美丽的玻璃鞋 可是无论她怎么努力 还是挤不进去
yo i m back in sch donin proj goin strt soon i estimate perhaps haha sian a anw i 4gt to sae i fixed the tv de loh wahaha i gt another talent fix tv hehehe watched my perfect cut woah watied so long 一切完美
不容易吧
看完我的最爱 一切完美 真的很难过因为我错过了前两集节目 难过因为幸福的情节偏偏错过了 一能看就是emo的情节不知道是不是意味着自己也找不到幸福了呢 很同意也很同情xiaoli She is one of the character who help to work in michelle ( Kelly )clinic Thn she go 减肥 认识sky 他是好好男人 一直帮xiaoli 她误以为sky喜欢她其实没有 可是她还是向sky告白了 可是被拒绝了 后来发生很多事 也这样sky终于爱上了xiaoli 可是因为xiaoli的悲观 她才会觉得自己配不上sky 她很努力想让自己变成配得上sky的人 她不想sky没面子每次为了保护她而起争持 或许大家觉得她很傻 可是我觉得她没错 不是她的错 她也是别无选择 没方法她也不想的 谁不真的找到自己的王子 这种期待好像自己会像灰姑娘一样的梦 很普通很常见 有人会说世界上根本没有灰姑娘 因为麻雀变凤凰不容易 不是每只丑小鸭都能变天鹅 觉得配不上 是一个很辛苦不好受的感觉 不是没只丑小鸭都会变天鹅 童话与现实还是有差距 太美好的事不见得 一定会等得到 奇迹不会永远出现 所以当你觉得你不配 就别勉强了 只会受伤 转身离开 唯一能做的 “这感觉已经不对我努力在挽回 一些些应该的感觉 是忽略 第一次太爱周杰伦的歌 觉得歌词总在述说着我的故事
yoyoyo in clubhse nw wahahh hehehe erm erm my TV HAO LIAO yeah太棒了！！！！！！！！！！！！ 哈哈 erm nw doing some research loh thn ltr do finish my good news letter and also haha dunno eh do AAA loh wahaha jiayou lohsss~~~~ nw gettin used le hehehe
hehehe wahaha mux jiayou wahaha wahaha mux work hard gettin used le but missed e feeling of of online on night wahaha
ok lah miss my wangzi so much go see him le bb
3:53 PM, love is floating in the air
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
haix
early mornin
nw in library
hahsa
jux nw
nearly
fell asleep on shuttle bus
haix haix
MY MP4
spoilt le
AHHHAHHAHHAHHAHH
haix
drop into water
when i go toilet
and have it in my poeckt
so sad can
haic
thn like hui guang fan zhao br4 my xin gan die it liike play awhile keep fast forward and it died on me =[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[ sadddddddddddddddd emooooooooooo mei you ta wo zen me ban =[[[[[[[[[[[[[ pls pls will u recover and revive haixpls i love u de la pls come bk to me bb go lesson le
8:37 AM, love is floating in the air
Monday, July 21, 2008
11:32 AM, love is floating in the air
hey i m back wahaha doin pmkt nw will come back to talk to u all soon~~~~~~~ nw to a unfamiliar place mayb emo haix haix so sorry emo daes are back wil get well soon as fer u and u get away from me as far as possible ok thanks thanks
i dun wan to see u all in my world hurting me =[[
erm wish me good luck fer pmkt bah bb jingyi mexi sorry during last lapse nvr help too much ben lai can go check d but sorry ....
11:01 AM, love is floating in the air
Saturday, July 19, 2008
ytd gt IS did some project le jiayou bahs!!!!!!!!! sian~~~~~~~~~~~ erm erm todae fri gt lesson first one is em bcomm portfolio presentation too soft too fast haha suan le haix no mood thn AAA thn jiu do proj thn go see lin yu zhong he damn cute gt high agn haha chase idol is myt forte haha u dun believe go ask xueting hahahaha don worry ting ur wuzun and da dong jiao to me ok i settle fer u ahaahhaha
i went to psycho huiyi jie go get autograph fro rynn though she wan go on sun isaer go twice if u wan gif him pressie y i tel u y i saw sm girls ask rynn write names don miss the chance ma if nt i nw not much mone yleft le i sure jiong there and ask him to sign my name fer me d loh haha gt kong qiu qian空秋千 my fac song woohoo gt shi lian xue also 失恋学 so nice nice~~~~~~~~ hahaha cool loh so high haha thn took photo wit peifen will upload that soon hehhe so happy happy hehe mood : neutralised cos emo plus high thn jiu sian worried
12:36 AM, love is floating in the air
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
wed was an emo dae
=[[
every1 sudden emo
A emo when i get there i dunno y haiz haiz she dun wan tel me keep askin her to cheer up but no effect thn i damn pek chek i walk off
thn B she angry why she angry cs every1 jiang bu ting she go do her hmwk and play song thn go emo herself wapiang another one walao eh thn hor ltr she also help in doin our acitivty
thn C she also emo guan dun wan li wo at all dunno lah she angry wit me or wat she dun wan sae dun wan li wo suan liao bu zhi dao la
thn D wat did D do D emo cs A dun wan li her i htink i udnno eh she also dun wan tel me another one？！？！？！？！
ppl keep askin me why why why i m always chasing idols y i dun wan to be at the reality y cant i be practical 我想我还是只能在虚拟的世界里 才能够活得快乐一点 也许很不切实际 也许在一直欺骗自己 我有可能就没有那个勇气 去承认 去面对我的真心
谢谢你们大家 谢谢ziqin，shinru，cheryl , priscilla thanks to all of u i finally face up to myself as wat ll happen i htink nw i don have the thing to or energy to htink =]
haic oh no can wat is this aah ahha haix i m nt xiang qin lah i dun wan aah
5:01 PM, love is floating in the air
haix donno y my emoness coming back to me again haix
mayb jux cs i m simply too useless to be independent i m jux so useless don u htink so bloggy i m always jux pouring my sorrows on u i have nv think how ll u feel dui bu qi =[[[[[[
too many things in this world i m afraid to face it mayb i m jux too cowardly too timid mayb i jux go out and knock myself in this world even if the results is i m having alot of wounds on me also nvm jiayou le hui~~~'
i think in this world everything ll have it unfairness mayb that is y some ppl life is always straight and peaceful whereas some are so adventurous
mayb i shld learn to venture on my own and don jux hide in a corner and cry like a 弱者 我不是弱者 i shldnt be so vulnerable anymore so pls frens when u see me so weak shi tel me i shldnt be like this i m SUPPOSED TO BE MAN AND STRONG AND INDEPENDENT I HAVE TO BE WHAT I HAVE TO BE ~~~~~~~~~~~
I M NT SUPPOSED TO CRY OR TO SOB NT TO HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES mayb over all these years all my tears had alredy been accumulated and they are nw rushing out themselves since young i nver like to cry in front of others i htink i shldnt be i m strong and ppl depend on me i m a cheerful one mayb i m jux like 格鬥天王 卫英崎 he is always acting calm acting that he is always happy 因爲他不知道 該怎麽做才好
11:56 AM, love is floating in the air
Saturday, July 12, 2008
hahah dui ni ai bu wan by wangzi mo fan bang bang tang version ahaha
wangzi crying so touching i knw i ll nvr have wangzi cryin 4 me
9:06 PM, love is floating in the air
YTS IS leanrt alot of things ytd is abt love haha lol erm realise smth to dream is cool o u knw why cs teacher sae if u dare to dream jiu can have ur dream realise haha
cs i heard a story when u dream that u ll reach ur prince u ll find one who is truly urs one dae no matter whr he is nw no matter how different or similar ur are
是嗎？？ 我又被這故事信服嗎？？ 應該沒有 我就相信了嗎？？ 沒有 我覺得沒那麽簡單
6:42 PM, love is floating in the air
yoyoyo long long nve blog liao hha gt miss me mah ???????? mux update ur le ok ok last sun eh too long le i 4gt liao hahaha haha
ok ok mon !!! erm mon gt lesson and went on to go hm finish my own work so guai hahaha i nvr fall asleep le haha so guai mayb cs nt so tired liao =]]]
tues gt ief haha i m still thinkin will i gt old and rich hha i wanna improve my keyboard and singin hahaa oh no i m gettin lousier haha then go do marketing woo hooo haha jiayou !!!!!!!!!!! wangzi ~~~~~~~ haha
thn go fer meeting thn go hm do work loh i hen guai d u knw haha
thn WED haha so cool right cs my dearier frenzies i ll b able to meet them fer scc haha ok thn went on to lesson thn i gt go marketing lecture ok finally this week lecture nvr sleep like mon marketing also nvr sleep le omg i did it hha hah thn jiu went to eat wit meixi haha thn go take pic haha u ll knw wat is dat soon haha haha
thn went fer scc thn go there emo sort of loh cs hen sian loh thn go down fer activity really dunno wat to do cs wanna help alvina and jacqueline d but no inspiration and they wrote it out le so let them go try loh also dunno wat to help helpless paiseh o haix thn go xue gang we alr finish our song le thn wan help them also cannt do anything haha thn aft that me and shinru go walk walk thn saw an quan gan and wee meng at one corner thn we go disiao them hha
i din knw that blur an quan gan can do melody d eh but so LAO CHENG hha oh no he is goin to get me fer this if he saw but i knw he wont saw so nvm hha hha thn i hen hao xin le ok i gt help u loh i help u write so many chinese words and there so stuffy lah staircase mei you feng d me shinru cheryl and ziqin go help them listen song also keep sweating loh
thn went on perform erm i think xue song nid to go go go to do better loh but i beleive in my mei d lah she can d so no worries fer jac and alvina erm gt our keyboardist there i also nt worried as fer an quan gan mah jiayou lohs~~~
yeah this mp i nt performin yes yes nt performin wahaha ~~~~~~ perform mayb nt fer the time being haha =]] ok lah so erm to ytd loh went fer IS haha and hand in som le hahaha i think IS nid to write another entry or else so long sia hha
thn jux nw go clubhse rot haha go sleep guess wat happen i bei guitar da dao hen tong you mei you haix hhaahah ben lai wanna watch performance but so late so came bk hen lei haha 心鎖rox~~
6:31 PM, love is floating in the air
Saturday, July 5, 2008
i realise ppl love to tag me fer this i dunno accurate ma but i gt tagged by cheryl xueting and avier hha priscilla thanks fer nvr tag me hha
1. Have you ever loved someone?haha very good qn can i answer i dunno aso erm erm jiu gt lah but is it love or jux admire i also dunno haha complicated ok love haha 2. Who is more important to you? friends or bf? definitely friends i will nvr betray friends i m loyal ok what bf haix sm1 who is my bf may nt really love me fer who i m but frens are different
3. Who are the people you trust the most? sometimes i do confide in my frens when i nid sm1 to lean on or so bt my deepest secrets onli my close closest frens ll knw or my bb my pooh bear plush toy he knws everything abt me haha 4. Do you think you have enough confidence?studies- stil can ief dunno le looks dunno le i can say 0% i hate my looks i hate to look at myself in e mirror can eeyer . 5. What do you think of YOURSELF? stupid;silly ;crazy ;emo ;fat ;ugly ;smth too confident ;smth too demanding
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?OF COS it is beautiful
7. What is your goal for this year?hope can have my achievement scholarship and bursary and also can stil be in directors list then can sing better =]]
8. Do you believe in eternal love?once i believe now NO cs true love is rare in this world esp in mine
NO.9. What feeling do you love the most? be alone to think smth cs this is e tym u can face e true self
10. What are the requirements of your the other half? eh i dunno erm caring kind love me understanding
11. List the best moments in your life. dunno eh nvr experience yet onli 18 years passsed stil gt a long way to go
12. What do you hate most?insects proud ppl and hypocrites
13. Between love and money?at the moment is money
14. What’s the most attractive things about a person to you?a character and the actions of e person like his / her act 15. Describe the person who tagged you using 5 words.firstly xueting cute , sweet, always there fer me , blur , pretty =]] cheryl weird , crazy , always there fer me , confident , cute avier pretty , confident , friendly , warm , kawaii
16. Who can you not live without?friends and families!
17.If you have one wish now, what would you wish for?
whole world in peace and thn every1 arnd me lives well
18.What do you want most for your birthday.my bday is just over erm i wanted bbt dvd but my dearest frens bought fer me can i sae i wan go to see bbt in taiwan ?? haha
19. Have I kept pets before?used to when i ws young goldfish but thn i go kajiao them so they gif them away
Huimin add on…What will you do if the life u’ve always wished for doesnt turn out the way u want it? dunno jux live on and move on
Xu Ping add on…To what extent are you willing to do in order to get your loved ones love you?My answer: dunno watever i can ???
Naidatul Nadzirah bte Razali Abdullah Rahman add on...What do you think of ponies?kawaii and magical !!!!!
Ikana add on...Could you ever stop loving someone?
hah dunno can i like wangzi hha
Bloodstop add on... using %, how much will you rate it for loving your bf or gf or your spouse or the one you admire? (be honest)
dunno 89%??? cheryl add on .. are u tired very lah can holis faster come ?????
10:08 PM, love is floating in the air
Thursday, July 3, 2008
hey back to updates haha erm wed sian a gt do work loh rountine ok eat kaki fuyong lol thn at scc drink honey green tea honey abit too sweet play wit trolley realise i cant drive lah hha then wrote lyrcid i can onli sae my lyrics nw really cannt make it le lah haix die le lah stil owe band some songs thn stil gt one more songs haicx standard dropped haix haix
erm thn ended thn rush home haha haha
thn go hm slack loh haix hehehe thn now todae IS loh fun gt speed dating i ending up chatting with them like how is ur class cos more thn half gt common topics or erm known them alr hha hhaa thn wrote my assignment again ahha learnt smth again sometimes ppl really onli look at first impressoons looks but thn erm erm haiyo but this kind of thigns to shallow if u sae onli looks thn jux look at handsome guys ppsters can le i mean of cos first impression counts lah but feelings more impt mah haix
10:52 PM, love is floating in the air
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
hihi haha now tues damn slack haha ltr goin to do som heheh hehe erm bang bang tang~~~~ wangzi~~ dui ni ai ai ai bu wan ~~~~~~~~~ hahaha jiayou tml scc woohoo =P
